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I would like to write a silence

I would like to write a silence for all the men I knew and didn't know and heard about and didn't hear about who came back from Vietnam and died in single car accidents on straight roads.   A silence because I still don't know what to say.

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One way to get out of going to Vietnam was to have your father killed at Anzio and not be born.

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The National Soul Searching About Vietnam scheduled for this time period will not be seen in order that we may bring you Watergate: Fascinating, Bloodless, and Not Your Fault.

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We are going down the valley.

We are going down the give me a V etc.    

We are going down the valley of the S-H-A-D-0-W.

We are going down the valley knowing we are better than the cheerleaders who can only yell and spell while we play instruments and have new uniforms this year.

We are going down the valley in our brand new uniforms bought by waxy wickless candy candles sold house to house at gunpoint with a smile.

We are going down the valley in our brand new red white and blue uniforms playing

When the Saints, we are not remembering the words.   '

We are going down the valley in our brand new uniforms with fuzzy red white and blue bullseyes doublestitched by mothers on the back.

We are going down the valley trying to remember the one two three four five six seven eight routine we have to do at the end of the parade, if the field's wet our new boots will be a mess not to mention our brand new uniforms and the permanent red white and blue tassle waving from my ass.

We are going down the valley doubletime, I'm losing step.
God, I hate surprises.   We are going down the valley one by one.

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I prayed not that the fire stop but that it finally consumes me.   No answer.   It wasn't my story.

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I walk around and around the tree and everyone stares and can't tell why until an expert passing by on the other side says Ah yes. A Tree Circler. and they build a fence around us with plastic engraved plaques for “Tree Circler.  “Tree”.   and leave us alone and I'm safe as long as I walk around and around the tree. -.

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Dogs and people make me nervous because I can't tell if they're fighting or starting to make love or which would bother me more.

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There was this certain sound that was planning to play bass at the Armageddon good guys victory beer bash and it began with Eve's shout at the start of Cain and passed through conch shells and earthquakes and souped up V-8 engines to a tree falling in the north woods late last year and I was supposed to hear it and say hey but was in class at the time it didn't happen stopped.

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In Hollywood it's pills.   In my town it's parked cars.   We're straightforward out here.   You or your survived by can pretend you got confused about the number but how many reasons are there to run a hose from the exhaust pipe to your mouth?

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God who turned on the lights, yes the same God who shaped up the void, the one who made it grow tall trees and short sweet violets and sprinkled it with fuzzy animals and you and me invites us to join his continuing effort to make the surface of the earth habitable.   Can you spare a quarter for someone who doesn't deserve it as much as you don't?

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I know It's a great honor she said but I've always wanted to screw.   No cathedrals in her honor but she scrawled her name on some good nights.

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naked turtle not hard not fast soon smashed quick dead knows what earth looks like knows how it feels

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Wliat do you really want and how hard have you tried how long how often to let it get you.

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If you don't'believe the Red Sea Opened for the Israelites,  you haven't been paying attention to the way life is.

If you don't believe the Red Sea closed on Pharoah's soldiers, you haven't been paying attention to the way life is.

If you believe you know whether you're an Israelite or a soldier, you haven't been noticing your life at all.

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Pilate had to decide whether or   not to kill this Jesus person.   Some said he was dangerous'.   Some didn't. Pilate wasn't sure and said, "What is truth?"   Jesus died anyway.

Moral: Philosophically sensitive people do not necessarily help you make it through the night.

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And a certain man blind from his mothers womb was laid daily at the gate of the temple called Beautiful to ask alms.   As Peter and John entered the temple he asked them an alms.  Peter said. Silver and gold have I none but such as I have I give to thee: in the name of Jesus of Nazareth, open up your eyes.   And immediately the man saw.   He said to Peter and John, You have taken away my livelihood and driven me mad.   And he put his fingers into his eyes.

Peter said, Come to think of it, Jesus always waits for them to ask, doesn't he?  

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Consider the lilies of the field which sow not neither do they reap and last about a week one good week.

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When we get there we'll be able to look at the sun all day and never squint.   The sun will be no dimmer but we'll be shining back.

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